Just call us CRAZY!

Hmm...where to begin? Our life has been a tad bit chaotic the past few weeks to say the least. It all began with a trip to Little Rock at the end of July. We all went down for a week to spend time with family & friends. Josh has been applying for jobs here in Bville and a little bit in Little Rock. Before I got pregnant with Lilly Belle Josh had been applying all over and the plan was to wait till Josh had a new job before trying for our 2nd child. Well obviously God had MUCH different plans in store for us. About a week after that plan was discussed I found out I was pregnant! So the job searching was put on hold, again. Well it's started back up and the idea of living in Little Rock continued to come up in conversation. Our college friends live there and words can't describe just how much we've missed them and have wanted our kids to know them. Josh's family lives down there also so our support group down there is amazing. Anyway, after a weekend trip to the lake with our friends we seriously began discussing the move...how & when? Josh began thinking of all his connections he could use to try and find a job as soon as possible. I began thinking.."hold on, if you find a job in let's say, a few months, I'm a teacher so finding a job in October is a little slim." So I thought for "fun" I'd just look around the Little Rock area. Josh's aunt then told me about a job with ACCESS schools. I'd never heard of it but thought what the heck. Nothing to lose. So I typed my resume up in about 15 minutes on a Sunday night, again...just for "fun." I emailed my resume on Monday thinking I probably woudln't even hear back. Well I got a call on Tuesday and the interview was set up on Wednesday!!! I was in shock. I thought about cancelling the interview because this was just crazy but decided it would at least give me a connection if we moved down in the future. I remember telling Josh, "Worst case scenario is I love it." Yup...I LOVED IT! When I met my boss I knew I was in trouble. She was super easy to talk to and came across so genuine. She talked about ACCESS with such pride that I could tell this was a very special place. She gave me a tour and at the end of the interview offered me the job right then. I was speechless. I was upfront with her about my situation and even told her my worst case scenario thought. I had 5 days to give her my answer. The majority of the next 5 days were full of prayer and more prayer. I cried A LOT. This was a life changing decision. I do believe I knew in my heart what my answer was the second she offered me the job. I knew God had opened this door but I had to battle it out loud for a few days. This wasn't an easy decision because of what I was leaving. My family lives here and my mom is my BEST friend. She is an AMAZING grandma and I just couldn't see myself leaving her. I also have a wonderful group of friends here and started debating if it was really worth it. That's when God said stop. Stop thinking, stop debating, stop weighing the pros and cons...and JUST DO. So that's what I did...I just went into action mode. I didn't even say many goodbye's because I was afraid I couldn't handle it and would change my mind. On Monday I accepted the job, which is teaching 4 & 5 yr. olds who have special needs. I then called my former boss. This was also very hard. I think God knew it was time for me to leave Vista because it was such an emotionally draining job and I dearly loved my students. I also loved my bosses. They were 2 wonderful ladies who loved God, loved me, and helped me a lot as a first year teacher. My boss cried on the phone, and this broke my heart. But I was very thankful it all ended on great terms. I hung up and that's when the real emotions of it all set it. I began questioning it all but then God said STOP. So I stopped and dove right back into action mode. There was sooooo much to be done.  I packed boxes, contacted a realtor to put our house up for rent, and tried to figure out how all this would work. Josh's parents came on Saturday and we loaded up the trailer and the kids and I headed down to Little Rock after a much tearful goodbye to Josh and my mom. Josh is still in Bville for the time being until his job can transfer him or until he finds a new job. Whatever God's plan may be. To make everything a lil crazier, I had to have my gallbladder removed last week, 2 days after I started my new job. The surgery had been scheduled the previous week but I had cancelled it due to the move. But after a horrible attack I had to drive back to Bville last week but I'm thinking the timing was perfect. It was before school had started and I got to see my hubs and mom even sooner than expected. I was then able to drive back down to Little Rock with my husband because he had 4 days off so it all kinda worked out. "Work week" was crazy getting my class ready for school but it was also fun. I got to know the people I will be working with and I'm so happy to say that I absolutley love them! It's going to be such a fun year!! I'm excited for what God has planned, but the anxiety still sets in from time to time. I have my crying meltdown, panic attacks, moments where I want to retreat to a cave and never come out. But thankfully the Lord is there for me in those times. He pulls me back up, carries me when needed, and even gives me a strong push at times. So this is our life as of now: me and my 2 kids live with Josh's family in Jacksonville. Josh lives in Bville in our house until it leases. Hopefully by October he will be down with us. We travel back and forth when we can. We have no idea how or when all of it will work out..but we have to trust in God that it will. That's all we can do. I believe God has us go through this because it really does bring us closer to Him. Where's the fun if it all worked out immediately, right? Sorry this was soooo long but I wanted to type it out for my own benefit. I hope to look back on this entry at some point and laugh saying, "oh, remember when?" I dream about that day often. I'm gonna end with the verse that I've heard countless times but now cling to.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11